I have been giving myself a hard time because the ease of following my eating plan in the first 5 months has ended. I now find myself tempted, a lot and have even over indulged purely in habit when stressed.
I had a change in thinking yesterday. I am now viewing the struggle as positive. It is forcing me to make decisions about what I eat and why. I am no longer following the eating plan or the actual choices of food by rote.
My goal this year was to live mindfully and these challenges help me achieve that. I know that talking about something won’t cure it but if it is a habit and you manage it by replacing a new more mindful way of action and thinking. It is a better way of living.
Two nights ago I had 5 points left on my daily point allowance under the Weight Watchers system. We were at the supermarket and I was putting high point items in the trolley stating they were for later.
Who was I kidding!! Not even myself because I knew if I bought these high point items I would eat them, immediately, and at the same time wreck my clean eating efforts. At times will power is ineffectual over just having to eat something I know is sitting in my cupboards.
So I chose not to buy them. I told myself if I wanted them I could go back tomorrow and eat them within my points. Was I a ‘little’ grumpy ? Definitely!, but I didn’t go back for them the next day.
This way of eating is teaching me a lot about my eating patterns and how often they are dictated by my mood and the past. I wanted a lifetime not a lifestyle change and I am working hard for it.