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Last week I walked 5 km on uneven ground with one crutch.  This week with a cold and a strong wind I walked 2.5 km and took 5 mins off my previous time on the same course.  It feels incredible.  Three more races to improve even more.

I used to feel really disabled when I had to use my crutches.  I hated how people stared and I just felt old and used up.  But tonight I realised that my crutches enable me and I now have no problem using them to do things like this race series.  People do stare (especially when I pass them – lol) but they also cheer me on too and either way I don’t let it bother me because I am doing what I want how I can and that’s okay!

I am even excited to get a walker with a seat because it will mean I can walk longer and rest my knee when it needs it.  I was previously dreading this for similar reasons as the crutches.  But now I am excited because I am really a keep – going – long distance gal more than a fast sprint lol.  I can not wait to try it out around the streets lol

Last week and this week I felt more like my old self.  I was hesitant the first week because of the uneven terrain but this week knowing the course and shortening it by a lap because of my cold, I went for it.  I loved feeling my legs biting in to get that little bit faster.  Too feel my breath getting raspy (and no not just from my cold lol).  I didn’t realise how much I missed it till I got back into it.

I also went to the gym today as part of the Green Prescription and I realised that I have missed that too but it will take time to get back into being able to do the things that I want to.  Walking first and yep – trying to work out if I could run with crutches lol  I may try that in a 10 or more kilos down.

love running!!  However I am intrigued by the race walkers and that might be a nice compromise.  It might suit my existing conditions better than running and almost give me the same thrill.  Additionally, no one wants to see me run because it is not pretty but I love it  … so who knows.

For the first time in a long while I am more excited by what I might be able to do and not devastated by what I can not.   It is invigorating and exciting.  I am going to be so sore tomorrow lol and it was so worth every ache and limp!!

Please feel free to share your journey’s, be they weight or recovering from injury.

I really do appreciate any and every comment.

 

 

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I was 46 years old when I begun this blog, female and married with a house full of cats (7). My past is littered with the impact of events that happened when I was a teen. Two loves of my life have been nursing and studying. I just completed my Master of Arts: Media Studies endorsement. My blog will be about the things I think about, that might be better served being written rather than squirreled away in my mind festering. It is the meanderings of my mind as I seek to define myself and my world.

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    1. Thanks Joy. I have arthritis in my knees and my left one is seriously impaired at times. That is compounded with having fibromyalgia as well but the weight loss and healthy choice changes are helping.

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