Day 26 —Write about your worst habit.
I think my worst habit when with other people is that I can cut them off when they are talking. I don’t mean to, I am usually just starved for conversation and it all boils up in me and then I feel pressured to get it all out. I love hearing from other people. I constantly try to work on it. However, I get more practice in written conversation than verbal and that does not help me. It is one reason I like my online life, my worst habit is not detectable.
I am uncomfortable in 1:1 conversations which annoys me a lot. It was something I used to partake of with ease but sadly not anymore. I have become almost antisocial and when I do venture into a public place it is a struggle for me to remember the norms of conversation. I know that I look to hubby a lot to distract attention from me and to help me if in my anxiety I can not manage the conversation.
I need to get my confidence back and to where conversations with someone other than hubby is the norm and not a rarity. I do not believe I will ever be a social butterfly but I would like to be able to enjoy social outings that I choose to go on. I will continue to work on respecting the person talking and just enjoying that moment of listening.