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Unnatural tired

Background:

I had this horrid experience when I first started on antidepressants and anxiety medication.  I literally could not stay awake on some of them and when awake felt so dull headed it was awful.  It has sat in drafts for awhile and currently the new medication regime is working on the symptoms with few side effects.

I am attempting to write it from the pattern of the first verse, which was in drafts and it has not been easy.  I hope that you enjoy it.

 

It claws at my bones and deadens my mind

The “unnatural tired”, bought on by medication

Adding weight to the symptoms of depression

But they do achieve the reason for their creation

 

I can be one of the zombies made by medicine

Slumbering mind, despite my eyes wide open

Unable to hold a thought, let alone express it

Making within my bed, the perfect hide out den

 

What frustrates the most is that I have depression

And hang over misery from the medication side effects

I walk around with their dual weight dragging me down

Few in my life seem able to see  what that I call defects

 

There is no perfect “drug”, as there is no perfect human

Medication is prescribed for the symptoms, generically

I am not my disease process, symptoms or side effects

Stop treating me, without listening to my story, empirically

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Author:

I was 46 years old when I begun this blog, female and married with a house full of cats (7). My past is littered with the impact of events that happened when I was a teen. Two loves of my life have been nursing and studying. I just completed my Master of Arts: Media Studies endorsement. My blog will be about the things I think about, that might be better served being written rather than squirreled away in my mind festering. It is the meanderings of my mind as I seek to define myself and my world.

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