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The slow return ..

I haven’t written for a while.  It is a combination of the mood that I had been in, which I realised when I read my dark poetry.  The other component is the medication that I am now taking for the often crippling anxiety that I experience.  Both have made me feel like I was having any creativity I possessed sucked out of me.

The medication has calmed my mind down.  I have periods of stillness that were lacking previously.  I can enjoy laying on the lawn and having the cats collapse near me.  It is especially gratifying now that we have tamed the lawns and main gardens.  There is still a lot to do but we can sit outside and enjoy the work we have completed.

Any medication can alter how you feel and thus are in the world.  I am getting used to this new me.  I am unfamiliar with the pool of calmness that now centers me and allows me to interrupt burgeoning panic attacks.   I can still stress but it is manageable.

I recently got recommended this article and found it very insightful:

http://belsebuub.com/articles/dont-let-yourself-be-dragged-down-into-the-pit-of-others-emotions-and-thoughts

Thank you Julian K for bringing this too my attention.

So this is my first writing effort in a while and it is going to be short as I am still not sure what to write, let alone how.  I will try and write each day because somewhere deep inside me, remains my love of writing.  I just have to find it.

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Author:

I was 46 years old when I begun this blog, female and married with a house full of cats (7). My past is littered with the impact of events that happened when I was a teen. Two loves of my life have been nursing and studying. I just completed my Master of Arts: Media Studies endorsement. My blog will be about the things I think about, that might be better served being written rather than squirreled away in my mind festering. It is the meanderings of my mind as I seek to define myself and my world.

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